It's Two-Zero-One-Zero.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, WORLD!

First & foremost, I'm EIGHTEEN this year though it's not officially yet. Still, I'm 18 :DD

Yesterday, patheticly I couldn't get my off day so I worked. Then I left to Bed for Michelle's party & New Year celebration with Michelle of course, SweeLin, Angel, Sylves, Vin, Chieh & a few i-don't-know-their-names. *sorryyy. Due to some uncomfy-ness, SweeLin & I walked to Kassim Mustafa to makan while waiting for my parents.

& this is how my 2009 ends & begins.

Hahaha, I'll stop here then as Im going out soon. Byeeee

-signing off-

BIT.

It's been the longest winter without you,
I didn't know where to turn to.
See, somehow I can't forget you,
After all that we've been through.

Going, coming... thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know,

If you didn't notice, boy, you mean everything.
Quickly I'm learning to love again,
All I know is I'm gon' be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, ooh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you,
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV,
Without something there that would remind me
It wasn't all that easy
To just put aside your feelings.
If I'm dreaming, don't wanna lie,
Hurt my feelings

But that's the path

I believe in,
And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice, well
You mean everything.
Quickly I'm learning to love again,
All I know is I'm gon' be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, ooh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really love you,
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to, ooooooh
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me (no more you and me)
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be.
No matter how hard it is,
I'll be fine without you, Yes I will.

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too ohhhh
It'll all get better in time ooooh
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time, woah

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, yeahh
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

-better in time by leona lewis-

Pee-Eyy-R-Tee-Whyyy gives you, PARTY!

The very-happy-and-relaxing event after SPM happened yesterday ;D
People involved : Grace, Jason, Angel, Su & Kassen.
Event happened at : The Northam All Suite Hotel.
Date: 15th to 16th December.

LOL. Anyway, headed to Adventist Hospital for a visit before going off to NorthamH.
Due to the non-efficient workers, we had to wait at the lobby for around half-an-hour & waited to Su & Kassen's arrival. As soon as they arrived, the room was ready so we went up to somehow crash the room with our luggages. Hahah. The room was pretty big & comfy.
Vincent came with his friends around 3 when we are going down to the pool. Heh.
Ahh, maybe I should just summarize it. I have so much to writeeee, RAWRRRR.
Let me see, hmmm, after poool , go-bathe-together, go-poker, dinner in NorthamBeach, go-UNO, go-poker again, pool side to chill, back to the rooom & continue go-poker. Well though it sounds lame but it's effing fun. I finally trained up my skill *evillaughs* Su & Kassen left around 10 plus as they couldn't stay over. I really think Ruba & Lele (pronounce in mandarin) should be trained to take care of the house! Hahahahah.
Angel ran off to sleeep but Jason kept her awake by singing the world most 'wondeful' songs to her. Hahahaha. You have no idea how funny when Angel hop here & there, doing ostritch-style sleeping to avoid his voice.
So we or perhaps only myself ended up sleeping at 4.30 due to his nonsense but pretty much helping me from suffering insomnia. Heh.
Checked out at 12pm sharp the next morning which is today. He is discharged too. =)

If you see no pictures, that koala bear Angel's fault. She is out for her new phone-shopping & I have no pictures here with me. Baaah.
So, cari kat Facebook after she uploads them. Wait, when I say them, it's means a lot.
Thanks for reading readers.

with love,

the-awesomess A.

FREEEDOM DOM DOM!

SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA DAH HABIS!

*move move shake shake-now drop*

And and I actually still wake up with 'what subject am I going to study later?' thought.
So yeah, the whole SPM nightmare has ended yesterday & I feel nothing omg-& oh-so-excited about it like UPSR or PMR which I don't know why.

Paper ends at 12.05 yesterday as we started late -.- draggy invigilator's fault. RAWRRR!
After returning our textbooks, I followed Grace home. (she drove) Her mum bought us lunch :DD then we got ourselves showered & did some nails-polishing before we left to have our hair-chopped.
Spent few hours there & dad picked up me around six.
Then, I spent my night to 4am in the morning skyping with you-all-know-yourself.

move if you do, stop if you don't ♥

Fairy tales never exist.

& I thought they were real,
& I thought my heart will be healed,
but now, it is all revealed
and clear,
that we never were.

take good care of me,
cause you are the reason that I still believe our fairy tale has just begun.

One I shall never forget.

My first love - Tynisha Keli.

Did you know that every day is so muuh more amazing
Waking up right next to you it feels like I'm daydreaming'
Never thought that I could ever love somebody the way that I love you
We had our days of fighting, breaking up and leaving
But you'll always make it right
Your smile makes my heart beat again
It just melts away right into your hands
Don't ever trade it
Baby, I believe that we gonna' make it

Chorus:
I'm so proud to say that you are my first love
When we're together baby, know that you're the only one
When you came next to me and hold me closely
I know you love me
You make my story complete
I'm so happy that I got you here to hold me down
I'll never break your heart and go astray no way no how
Treasure from up above
Never betray your trust
Always thinking' 'bout us
Baby I'm forever in love

Oh, it feels so crazy when you wrap your arms around me
I place my ear against your chest to hear your heart beat
Take good care of me
'cause your the reason that I still believe our fairy tale has just begun
If I'm in a movie then don't nobody say cut
And if I could be dreaming then let me sleep forever
You're so lovely and sweet like honey
There ain't nothing' that can chase away these feelings boo

Chorus

I never thought that miracles could happen
But your living proves that He's up there listening
And whenever I'm lost, you help me find my way home,
you direct me back to your heart
Oh, I'm so proud baby you are mine

you were my first love, baby :)

Laugh when you read, if you can.

It's funny how hello is always accompanied with goodbye,
it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry,
it's funny how forever never seems to last,
it's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past,
it's funny how “friends” can just leave when you are down,
it's funny how when you need someone, they are never around,
it's funny how people change and think they're so much better,
it's funny how many lies are packed into one “love letter”,
it's funny how one night can contain so much regret,
it's funny how you can forgive but not forget,
it's funny how ironic life turns out to be,
but the funniest part of all, is none of thats funny to me.

HAH HAH.

Gratitude is the sign of noble souls.

So yeah, yesterday ( 6th Nov '09) , my school celebrated ThanksGiving Day.

Besides, it was some kind of graduation for the Form5 students too.

After the morning assembly, the classes lined up according to classes & entered the school hall.

Speeches by teachers were given ; presentations were played.

For what I give, not what I take,

For battle, not for victory,

My prayer of thanks I make.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING DAY !

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

I DEMAND!

I'M SO IN THE MOOOOD FOR MOVIES RIGHT NA-NA-NA! :D

Ahah, I know I knowww SPM is near, but butt ,I don't caree ,I want to watchhhh lar.
They are just so, attractive. Hohoho.
This is a mini list of movies I'm dying to watch it.

First up.

Next.

Followed by.

Last one ( for now) hahah.

A movie marathon with me, anyone? :)

Perfectly Imperfect.

Thought I could get rid of you;

thought you'd meant nothing anymore;

thought Teddy should be in the bin by now,

since the day you left;

the day you misunderstood;

the day you've got another her.

But why,

why is my heart beating so fast everytime I see you

and I would hide myself away from your sight.

So, you won't see my pathetic look.

Baby,

I still hug&kisses Teddy when the Sun shines,

still put on the shirt you gave everyday.

Love the scent on it;

Love the soft soft cotton;

Love the comfy feeling I had.

Now,

I'm staring at the pictures we took;

flashing back our memories,

smiling & not denying that,

they were the best I ever had.

I love you forever & always.

Infantile you are - Part 2.

I felt like an ass trusting you for so many times.
Being like a dumb-shit & thought you will be nice to me
but all you did was betraying me behind my back.
I thought you will never hide stuffs from me but now you are.
I've heard so much from the others. When will you stop pretending?
When can you stop lying to me? You disappoint me much. I should have believed what my friends said when you were getting close to me.
I fucking sided you because I felt that you're a nice & caring friend.
You proved me wrong. So so wrong.
Spending your time with someone else rather than those you called 'sisters'.
C'mon, don't bullshit to me anymore. Saying that you care & that you really do.
I'm bored of your empty promises. You should have knew I'd always hated lies. & it's ALOT.
Yeah, as your friend said, people can't go according to my wish (so I assumed you think that lying is right) Genius. I can never find someone like you in my life, I worship you.
& you love being the third-party in everyone's life. Very much.
I'm sorry, the previous post was for you. Not the one who admitted it.
Yeah, be happy. He cares about you. Go ahead. I don't give a shit about anything that has got to do with you anymore.
Go on with what you feel like doing. Don't care about my feeling. Well, like you never do.

LMAO! :D

Infantile you are.

:)

I couldn't bare any longer neither could I tolerate.
Forgive me for being harsh this time but you're just way too much.
You expect people to understand your feeling when you don't give a shit about others.
You might not know what you're going to say would hurt others' feeling but you can just shut your fucking mouth up right?
I don't need your comments cause I doubt they're helpful to me.
All you did was made me feel even worse everytime you gave me your oh-so-best comfort.
And all I did was giving you a smile & telll you I'm fine, don't worry. Then, you left to another topic.
Friend, I'd tried to find a reason to be more tolerance towards you, but a million reasons was given had made me realized that you're not worth it.
Stop underrating me. Stop calling me a 13 year-old kid, fuck you I'm already SEVENTEEN okay.
Yeah, so what if I look like a kid? You wanna look mature & old, that's your problem.
Because, you ONLY look old but you act like exactly like a kid -.-
Next time, when you talk, please do care about how people feel. If you have feelings, everyone has it too.
Do not judge a book by it's cover as well. Plus, you suck at being somebody else.
Stop being a wanna-be, have your own style.

I'm checking into rehab, cause everything that we had,
didn't mean a thing to you.

Nyawa-nyawa ikan.

I can't express ; A little deadpan.

GODDAMN!

Only 40 more days to go & I'm still lazing around. Realized that I should be studying now but here I am

Blogging, Facebooking, Skyping, MSN-ing & Plurking.

Like wtf, I just don't have the mood to hold a book & start collecting informations then store it in my memory. I think my cerebrum has died. No more voluntary actions. Hahah. XD

Let me see, I have 9 subjects & I only have 40days left ( to be exact, 20days left, minus off my own personal use). Baah. 2 days a subject (around 15 chapters) pun tak cukup :( Macam ni mana boleh?

Worst is, I couldn't even put my concentration when lessons are on. This is seriously killing me.

SOMEONE SLAP ME PLEASE?! Wake me up before it's all tooo late.

let's drink, drank & drunk.

Signing off to study perhaps, tooooodles! (:

TheSpirits.

Friday , 2nd of October 2009.
Event : Shawn's 17th Birthday & ChiaShen's Buffet Dinner.
Venue : Gurney Plaza & ChiaShen's house.

I rushed home after school to get prepared & dashed to Gurney. Meh. Before meeting the others, Angel & I shopped for birthday boy's gift. We dined in Chilis for lunch & SinYee came to meet us up. Later, went to watched G-Force. Sorry to those who'd already watched. Anyway, it wasn't that nice after all plus the situation wasn't so pleased that time :( ugh.
Everyone left around half past seven.
So yeah,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN!

After that, went to Farlim Mcd to meet Su & Kassen then to ChiaShen's house. It was pretty awkward in the beginning ; still awkward in the end but had a great time too le. It's a crowd there though. Sadly YingTing couldn't make it! RAWRRRR. You owe me Lim Ying Ting! :P hahaha.

The day ends at 11.30pm ( cause I have to go home dy -.-) tadaa-daa-daaa.

At 12am, Anna wished all GoodNight! :D

The one & only picture of the day.

I don't regret.

The Awesome blogger.

Addicted to : I hate love by Claude Kelly.

Chorus:
I hate goodbyes
I hate these tears in my eyes
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime
I’ve had enough
I’m sick of wishing he was around me every day, every night
its way too much
I hate love.

I am : facebooking , skyping & listening to songs plus singing! XD
Current mood : Confused. :/

Drops.

After a week of boredom at home without Streamyx, I almost died. Really. I was bored to the extend that I repeated the movies that I'd watched before :( GRRR.
Anyhow, one of those pathetic days, I went out to Gurney (just for a lil while) with Su & Dannis after our ModernMath tuition. We took cab there :X
Yeah, just the 3 of us. In between, we met up with YeeChiun & her friends. Met KwannWven ; the others also.
Well, the day won't be so bored if we'd catch a movie. Thanks to both them, I can't get to watch G-Force! RAWRRRR. So & so, since we were so bored, we walked to Coffee Island & we walked back.


Supianta ; Anna ; Dannis.


Someone was waiting when Su & I was in the toilet. Heee.


Later, we walked back to Gurney again! As we were walking, we met some Singapore artist. Mehh. Dannis kept OMG-ing all the way even till I left. LOL! Before I left, Su left first!
That was my one-day outing during the hols only. Tsk.
Till here baa, byee readers! <3>

Omfg, would you please care how I feel?

Pressure.

Aha. It has been ages since I'd really blog besides my lyrics & random post le, hee.
Ohkay ohkayy, trials are over but the stupid stupid Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia in around the corner (more or less 60days) OMG. I'm not even ready for it!

GAAAAAAAAH!

& it's only the beginning of the week & this is what happened, *frowns*

English teacher says, 'Anna, you did not do well this time' (or something like that la).

Math , dropped much. Very muchhh.

Sejarah, HAHAH!

and of course more to go by this week. Like Science, Perdagangan, ACCOUNTS, Arts & etc...

PHUGGG dy la.

down down down.

Macam mana nak ambil peperiksaan pada bulan November nanti? :(

JIU MING AH JIU MING AH*

Kay lar, till here for today's post. Jumpa lagi!

Stay close, don't go.

LoveStory.

SHE PHAILED.

you'll be the prince & I'll be the princess,
It's a love story , baby just say YES :)

song continues playing over & over again.

*insert song here*

Fallin' for you- Colbie Caillat.

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

Chorus:
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

Repeat Chorus

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

& I think I am.

Odds are Good ; Goods are odd.

Finally & sadly, my marching would end today. I doubt I have anymore marching chances in school anymore :(

Oh well, today we did it quite well ; compliments by both our teachers, the Tans.

After school, Angel & I headed to PGM and had TomYamNoodle while waiting to meet Grace.

She wants to do her pedicure maa. Lalalaa.

Later, Angel & I went for a movie (Aliens in the Attic) because the person don't allow us to stay inside.

Went to KDU around 5 for YouthMeeting. Sorrry to Ginger, for being 2hours lateee :X

The image of your is still lingering in my mind.
The little thoughts of you had conquered almost all.
I ask. Why is your name on everyone's lip?
That wherever I go, about you is all I heard.